Emotion = Energy in MOTION

It is the 21st of February and a new episode of this journey begins.

I have been at the lake for two months, I have met people that I cannot and will not forget, I have started projects that I wish to continue and most importantly I have found love.

I will not expand on love, as this blog is one on my travels not on love ( although I now argue that love can be the biggest journey of all) but the reason I do mention it, is that this blog might be one filled with emotions, leaving someone I love behind being the source of those emotions.

So the last few days have been a blur - yesterday, Saturday was the day we had to ship off 16 skirts, which will be heading for the east coast in the US to try their luck for us. so causing alot of stress but also excitement we worked long hours to complete these!! as we saw them leave, waved our goodbyes and raised a glass to our first collection, it felt great to see one aspect of this project finished.
Ecolibri is also in full swing and should continue to be so in the future.
I stopped working at Fe in the last week to absorb every moment I had left at the magical lake and my little house, which has not only become my new home but my own little temple of love and peace - I feel grateful for having found a place liek that, even if I only resided there for a month. Two minutes in heaven are better than one minute in heaven :)

So I brushed off the dust of my big rucksack and layed out the accumulated crap on the bed. It must be said that a few things had to be left behind but I was genuinly surprised at how everything fit!
One final descend down the hill to the dock and with the wobbliest feet yet I entered the "lancha" for one last time. It is hard when you have to leave something, somewhere and someone that make you feel a 100% happy and a 100% yourself. I cannot ohnoustly give you a good reason why I left earlier today- and the more I think about it the closer i am to just taking a shuttle back to the lake, but times come when we know we have to do things- even if they feel like the most unfeasible at that precise point in time.

So one boat ride and a 4 hours bus ride later I stepped into hostal cafe city, 3 minutes away from Guatemala city airport. My flight leaves at 6.40am and so the close prozimity to the airport seemed great at the time- now all i see about this place is its extreme distance from San Marcos.
I fly to Costa Rica, where I have one day to roam around and fly to Quito in Ecuador that same evening. I do not know what this journey will entail for me, how many baggs i will lose or flight I will miss but to be ohnoust right now I don't see myself gathering the strenght to board that plane anyway. So lets not get ahead of ourselves!!!

Emotion is just an abreviation for Energy in motion and I feel like today I have taken this meaning to a whole new level. Love is a form of energy, so is fear, excitement, anxiety and courage - all those have been electrifying my entire body and as I move closer towards the next destination and further from my previous, motion seems to be the predominant variable.
I do not claim to understand emotions, a strong as the ones stated above but I can say this with certainty:

Every meal, every nap, every step, is a potential source of gain or loss!

This, for me, seems now more important than ever before. life is absolutely beautiful and the beauty lies equally in the moments of pain as in those filled with love and joy. As I listen to the empty street outside my hostel, I know that this is the biggest test for me so far. Listening to your heart can be painful and might not always seem right but the truth is that one does not have to look any further- the truth is only to be found in our hearts and noone ever said that pain or fear might not be found. The good always comes with some bad attached to it. But that is no reason to not listen to your heart.
So as I admit to feeling a bit lost and deeply confused I finish this blog on a positive note:

Light. Love. Life.

All these are one, each an expression of the other, three dimensions of the same existence.
Even in these seemingly darker hours I am a strong believer and witness of this. So I continue to follow the stream as it will lead to river of my life soon enough - That i take away from Guatemala.